reiichun: (sakumiya)
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Title: Deep Sorrow
Author: rei
Pairing: Sakurai Sho/Ninomiya Kazunari (Sakumiya)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst
Word counts: 1423 Words
Disclaimer: Fiction
Beta: Un-Betaed
Notes: Originally posted on my AO3 right here
Summary:

The small figure is seen sitting on the chair, facing the window. Back-hunched, lonely, without any movement, giving the feels as if he is building a barricade around his fragile body with his own misery. On his lap, there lay a hand clutching a photograph of two, smiling lovingly at the camera. Side by side, face to face.

Such a great contradiction to his surrounding.

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The small figure is seen sitting on the chair, facing the window. Back-hunched, lonely, without any movement, giving the feels as if he is building a barricade around his fragile body with his own misery. On his lap, there lay a hand clutching a photograph of two, smiling lovingly at the camera. Side by side, face to face.

Such a great contradiction to his surrounding.

His eyes look into the distance ahead, but nothing can be seen from its reflection. It’s empty. Just the round of blackness. Giving the feel that you will get sucked once you stares into it. It’s beautiful, but it’s empty.

No one can ever know what he is thinking at those time. No one, except one person. The person he holds dearly into his heart. The person who means everything in his life.

But he has already gone.

Gone leaving him.

Leaving this world.

Poor him, they said. I heard the cause of the accident was because the two of them were arguing when they were driving in the car. The car fell into the cliff. The police said that the car had been so in wreck until it shape can’t be recognized anymore. But the weird thing is, there was only one body on the burning car, while the other was already out of the car. Is that mean that he was saving himself? Abandoning his companion who got trapped inside the burning car? How cruel!

Nino could hear clearly those words from the nurses’ around him, gossiping him, blaming him for what happened, but he couldn’t care less. He knew what was really happen to the both of them. He knew how the said person tried to push him outside, tried to get Nino out of the car that the door was miraculously got open so wide because of the wrecked when that nightmare happened. Even with only a little strength that left on his body, even with his lower part of his body that get trapped inside the damaged car, he pushed Nino with all his might, tried to save him. Nino wants to resist, Nino wants to stay by his side even if die will come to them, but he couldn’t move at all due to the shock that running through his body. Nino could only pleading, crying while saying no, saying that he didn’t want to leave his side. Saying that he want to be with him, even if he need to die with the other. The other then stopped for a while, giving Nino the sweet smile he usually gives when Nino was afraid, when Nino was feeling troubled, then reached out to caressed Nino cheek, saying that it’ll be okay, saying that he will be okay. Saying that Kazu just needs to get out of the car first and then he will come to him. Nino was sobbing hard, he kept saying No, no, no! I want to be with you! I don’t want to leave you..! I..I’m sorry…! It’s my fault that you got to be like this! I…it’s my fault that we got into the accident! I’m sorry! Please don’t push me, Sho..please..

No, no. This isn’t Kazu’s fault. He whispered while caressing Nino’s head softly with his trembling hand. He kissed Nino’s hair lovingly. Stop saying something like that, okay? We will be fine. Now you need to get out from the car first, and then I’ll come to you. We will be together again, I promise. He breathed into Nino’s hair, kissed Nino’s forehead, Nino’s cheeks, Nino’s nose, and Nino’s lips heartily, pouring Nino with love so he could assure Nino that everything will be fine. But Nino knew that he was lying. Everything won’t be fine.

The man then pushed Nino again, the smile didn’t disappear despite the blood and dirt covered almost all of his handsome face until Nino was out of the car, his body thumping by the grass underneath him. He landed on his side, facing the wrecked car. Nino felt the horror, eyes wide seeing what can be called as a nightmare in front of him. Suddenly feeling suffocated because of the fear, he tried to find where Sho was, the half side of his body lying on the seat where Nino was before, still smiling while looking at him, but Nino could saw it clearly that he was holding his tears back. Nino’s eyesight got more blurred because of his own tears. His head, his body and his heart throbbing painfully. He put all of his strength to move his hand, trying to reach Sho who was still there, smiling at him but no longer holding back his tears.

Sho tried to reach him too, holding out his hand as far as he could until their fingers met. Only the small part of their fingers touched, but both of them could felt and understand each other's feelings at that time as if they were being connected as one.

Sho.. Nino cried while grasping tightly at the small part of Sho’s hand that he could hold into as if he was afraid that Sho will vanished from his touch. Sho returned the grasp as if reassuring Nino that he was still here, still with Nino. Sho.. I’m scared… Nino whispered into the chill air of the night.

Everything will be okay, Kazu. Sho smiled. Everything will be okay.. He caressed Nino’s cold hand gently, tried to give the hand a little warm even though his own hand was as cold as Nino’s.

But then something caught Nino’s eyes at the other side of the car. The orange color was moving graciously, as if it was dancing to Sho and Nino’s misery. And then it got bigger and bigger until Nino could felt the heat on his face. Nino got panicked. He tried to move, grasping Sho’s hand tighter, trying to pull him into his direction, but he didn’t have the strength. Sho was still smiling, holding the pain he felt on his body. He grasped Nino’s hand tightly and then detached their laced fingers.

I love you, Kazu..

No! No, Sho! No! Don’t leave me! No! Kazu screamed, crying, trying to grasp Sho’s hand once again, but it was too far away, too hard to reach with his unmoving body. And then he felt someone touched him, carried his body further away from Sho. No! No! Please..Sho! God damn it, don’t leave him! Please! Save him! No!

Nino struggled against the person hold, reaching his hand out to Sho, want to touch him, want to beside him, but their distance grew larger and larger. And Sho still half lying there inside the wrecked car, the burning car, smiling even though tears were running down hard on his bloody face, as if sending Nino a goodbye. The dancing flame suddenly there, enveloping Sho’s body, devouring feverishly to the dear man. But the smile never comes off from his face. Never.

The explosion sound was heard, surprising everyone in the middle of the night, even from miles away.

That was the last thing that Nino saw before he got engulfed by the darkness.

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It’s been hours since the small figure has seen sitting on the chair, facing the window. Back-hunched, lonely, without any movement, giving the feels as if he is building a barricade around his fragile body with his own misery. On his lap, there lay a hand clutching a photograph of two, smiling lovingly at the camera. Side by side, face to face. Such a great contradiction to his surrounding

Suddenly the small figure can feel a breeze comes out from nowhere, caressing his face, as if trying to say that Everything will be okay.. He closed his eyes slowly, letting a single tear escape from his beautiful eyes.

Yes… Everything will be okay now…

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The small figure is still sitting on the chair, facing the window. Back-hunched, lonely, without any movement, giving the feels as if he is building a barricade around his fragile body with his own misery. But there’s nothing on his lap, no photograph of two, smiling lovingly at the camera. Side by side, face to face. The photograph has fallen onto the floor long before they found it beside his sitting body, the red liquid smearing the face of the two. They are mourning, they are grieving. Faces are red and streaked with tears.

Such a great contradiction to the soft smile that plastered the seated small figure's face on the chair.

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Notes:
Finally, I have the courage to post this on my LJ XD.
This is my first published Sakumiya fic, and to be honest, I feel nervous about this since it haven't got checked by Beta yet (I couldn't find anyone and the only one I know is kind of busy with her real life), but I still want to post this right here on Sakumiya day (It should have been yesterday, though XD)

Another thing is, I hope, me writing Sakumiya won't stop right here, since I really enjoy in doing it and I still have some unfinished drafts on my phone XD
But I'm not sure people will enjoy my writing, though XD

Comments are appreciated! Thank you~

Date: 2017-02-05 08:26 am (UTC)
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Date: 2017-02-05 03:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] southview.livejournal.com
Ah! I've read this before in AO3! Seriously, I love your writing and you should write moreee! I almost cried when I read this actually (and apparently, I read this in class lol). Please keep on writing Sakumiya T^T The archive is quite empty nowadays *sighs* Nonetheless, thank you for sharing this! Ganbattte~

Btw, I just knew that you're Indonesian! Hellooo~!

Date: 2017-02-06 03:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] reiichun.livejournal.com
Ah, thank you for the comment even though you've already read this before, it really means a lot to me to know what people think about this fic :D
I was afraid that this will be too angsty for people's liking XD

And it may sounds a little bit sadistic, but I'm glad to know that you're nearly cried when you read this, because I cried too when I wrote this story lol

Yes, I hope I can continue to write them, they are my otp after all lol
And I still have some drafts left on my phone, I hope I can slowly make them into stories XD

Hello to you too~~~
Perhaps you are an Indonesian too? :D

And Happy Birthday to you~ *I saw someone made a fic post on arashirabu for your birthday XD*

Edited Date: 2017-02-08 01:36 pm (UTC)

Date: 2017-02-09 08:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] southview.livejournal.com
Sorry for late reply. I've been very busy with life ugh. Anywaaaays~ It's really hard to find a new Sakumiya fanfics too, so I just reread your fanfic again XD ANGST IS GOOD LOL!

I almost cried in English class, yeah it was hard to cover myself that time but it's okay! As long as it is Sakumiya, why not? :")

Same! Sakumiya is also my OTP T^T I love them so much~
Please, don't hesitate to publish them once you're done! Your English is good :3

Oh yes, I'm Indonesian myself too~~ Hope we can be friends though? :3

OMG thank youuu! *huggies*

Date: 2017-02-09 12:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] reiichun.livejournal.com
YAAY TO THE BOTH OF US FOR BEING AN ANGSTY TRASH!! LOL XDD

Yups, no one can resist Sakumiya ❤💛

It's so rare to find someone who have Sakumiya as their OTP nowadays except for the Japanese fans! Glad I can meet you XD
Thank you! Just pray for me so that I won't be too lazy to do brainstorming in front of my computer LOL

Of course! I'll add you~~

You are welcomeee *hugs*

Date: 2017-02-06 11:02 am (UTC)
leiva21: (juntoshiback)
From: [personal profile] leiva21
Owww this is quite sad...
Thanks for sharing btw <3

Date: 2017-02-06 02:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] reiichun.livejournal.com
Thanks for reading :)

Date: 2017-02-13 09:54 am (UTC)
yukitsubute: (Sakumiya hand)
From: [personal profile] yukitsubute
That was soooooo sad, but nevertheless I really loved it. Thanks for sharing ❤

Date: 2017-02-15 01:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] reiichun.livejournal.com
Thank you for reading and your lovely comment~ 💕

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